I hatye feeling like the past three years of my life have meant nothing because i won’t be looked at twice by the college of my dreams and the college of reality due to poor grades. whats worse is the fact that I know precisely that it is my own fault that I am in this situation. I enjoy me down time very much, actually that in itself is not true, there is much that I could accomplish if i were willing to give up my bullshit and do it. For example, yesterday i had looked for something to watch so that i wouldn’t be bored, i could have read one of the books i’ve been meaning to wrap up or get some practice in on Logs. What i settled for however, was to watch Sex in the City, which is a funny show but not all that funny. In fact, Greys Anatomy is 10x better than Sex in the City and doesn’t have as much aclaim. As usual I’m deviating from the topic I set out to talk about. I tell people that the past is the past, one must accept the past and move forward trying to shape the future in the best way that they can. Swallowing the pill of your own medicine is in order. I cannot change my regrets any more than a lion his stripes. There is nothing left to say on the matter.